I’m Dreading Weaning

Having a rainbow baby was not what I expected. There are things that I expected to find difficult that were in fact easy, and things I never expected to burden me with worry. Weaning is one of those things I didn’t expect to evoke so much emotion. I think some of my reluctancy comes from…

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Rainbow Baby Birth Story- I could Have Died

I wish the title to this blog was clickbait. I couldn’t have made this up if I tried. I would normally complain and say “why me?” but you know what, instead I want to say Thank You. Thank you to Silver Rose, my angel in heaven. Or should I say my guardian angel. I couldn’t…

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Introducing Leilani Nevaeh Our Rainbow

Hello everyone! As you can maybe tell from my 10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby blog post I am officially back to blogging! I don’t want to come on here and do a super lengthy post, I just wanted to quickly introduce Leilani but more details and the birth story will be coming…

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Last Few Days

I officially have only one full day left of this pregnancy. On Monday morning at around 9am provided there has been no emergencies throughout the night where the theatre has been required, we will be meeting our little girl. I thought it might be beneficial for other rainbow parents if I shared exactly how this…

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28 Weeks Pregnancy After Loss Update – Gestational Diabetes

Twenty eight weeks have flown by. I feel like I’ve blinked and missed this pregnancy, yet at the same time there was parts that felt like they dragged on. Like waiting for the consistent reliable kicks for my peace of mind or approaching that all important twenty week scan. Even in the past two weeks,…

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26 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

This might very well be my most brief pregnancy update yet. I’ve been struggling a lot with mood recently so haven’t felt particularly inspired to write much nor do much. This pregnancy is not quite going as planned and just as we thought we could sit back and relax more things have come up. It’s…

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24 Weeks Pregnancy After Loss Update

Hello everyone! I hope you are all enjoying this autumnal weather as much as I am. I haven’t got to experience it too much but I’m loving the opportunities I do get to be out and about as the seasons change. We seem to always have something planned for the weekend at the moment which…

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22 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

I’d like to start this blog off on a positive note! Pregnancy wise and health wise I’ve felt like crap but emotionally I’ve actually felt pretty stable. I’ve only had one wobble with my mental health but apart from that I’ve been coping really well from a grief and emotions point of view. This also…

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Putting Our Baby First – A Difficult Decision

Some of you may have seen recently on my social media that we recently acquired a kitten. I was so looking forward to writing a short blog post to introduce her yet unfortunately things took a very serious turn for the worst. We had to make a very difficult decision but at the end of…

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20 week Pregnancy After Loss Update

Half way mark! I actually decided to see nineteen weeks as my personal half way mark because I’m hoping this little one comes early. I might have already mentioned this but they are planning on doing sweeps from thirty eight weeks for me to help my chances of a natural labour so I’m really hoping…

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