Why We Chose Life

I recently spoke to someone who had opted for a medical termination for a baby who had a terrible illness known to be incompatible with life. It really got me thinking about what I would have done in that situation where there was a clear diagnosis and certainty of loss. With Silver it was the…

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10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby

I’ve been really struggling to bond with my rainbow baby recently and it got me thinking. It didn’t make sense to me that I bonded better with my daughter Silver Rose who was in NICU where I only got one hug in sixteen days yet when I have a healthy baby that I can have…

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Overprotective?

We had an incident recently I wanted to share. I want to tell you just what an impact child loss can not only have on our emotional well being but also how it can change our behaviours. I’ve always been pretty protective of my son Beau. I don’t really allow him to eat sugar, I…

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Tiny Lives – Fundraising

Hello everyone! It may come as a surprise to you but most people who have lost a baby are supported by charities. This may look different depending on your location and circumstances but I would love to share with you some of the charities which supported us and why I am asking you to help…

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Hit By a Bus – Metaphorically Speaking

Okay so as the title suggests I’ve not actually been hit by a bus, but it feels like it. Remember last week I said how great I felt. I was happy, coping and feeling productive. Well this week grief and exhaustion has hit me like a double decker. I wish I could say what triggered…

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When Things Go Well

Hi Everyone! I hope you have all had a lovely weekend and enjoyed this glorious weather. I have actually had a good weekend and decided it was worth sharing since I feel like super mum right now. Okay I know that sounds a bit condescending but for some reason recently I feel like I am…

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3rd Time Lucky? – Prenatal Depression

There are parts of pregnancy that I love. The fluttering baby kicks (maybe not so much the kicks to the bladder or ribs), the bond you have with your husband when he rubs you belly or simply the excitement of welcoming a new baby into the family. Of course, things won’t be quite the same…

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The Waiting Game – Post Mortem Results

Yesterday marked 6 weeks from us taking Silver down to the chapel of rest at the RVI in Newcastle. We’d had five nights with her in the NICU in flats which are used for parents preparing to take their NICU baby home whilst having the nurses nearby in case any incident did occur. It was…

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But you have a toddler…

If you’ve read my “Our Story” you’ll know I am blessed with a beautiful little boy called Beau. Now the first thing I have to say is this may trigger some people but please let me explain. I absolutely love my little boy to pieces but he is still a toddler going through the terrible…

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I Had A Stroke?

I decided while its still fresh in my mind I should finish telling my story after being blinded by grief, literally! As I mentioned in my other post, the doctor at the TIA clinic said not to worry and had ordered an MRI scan of my brain within 4 weeks. Well the day after this appointment…

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