Last Few Days

I officially have only one full day left of this pregnancy. On Monday morning at around 9am provided there has been no emergencies throughout the night where the theatre has been required, we will be meeting our little girl. I thought it might be beneficial for other rainbow parents if I shared exactly how this…

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Trusting Strangers with Beau

I am sure most loss parents will be able to relate to my overprotective nature of Beau. Surprisingly however I have always been very protective of him. I remember worrying when I was pregnant how I would feel about other people holding him when he was born, especially with family members I was not close…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 11 weeks

Eleven weeks already? How did the first trimester go so quickly? Silver’s felt never ending yet I feel this one feels it is over before its even begun. Okay so technically I’ve got a week and a bit left but still I feel like it was only yesterday we got the news. Nonetheless I’ve got…

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Rainbow Baby Announcement

Wow, where do I start? Is it bad that I am starting to write this in preparation for posting later this week and I just had a small fleeting thought that what if tomorrow there’s no heartbeat? I can imagine that’s a normal part of pregnancy after loss. I’m already paranoid and terrified. I thought…

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Overprotective?

We had an incident recently I wanted to share. I want to tell you just what an impact child loss can not only have on our emotional well being but also how it can change our behaviours. I’ve always been pretty protective of my son Beau. I don’t really allow him to eat sugar, I…

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Tiny Lives – Fundraising

Hello everyone! It may come as a surprise to you but most people who have lost a baby are supported by charities. This may look different depending on your location and circumstances but I would love to share with you some of the charities which supported us and why I am asking you to help…

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Hit By a Bus – Metaphorically Speaking

Okay so as the title suggests I’ve not actually been hit by a bus, but it feels like it. Remember last week I said how great I felt. I was happy, coping and feeling productive. Well this week grief and exhaustion has hit me like a double decker. I wish I could say what triggered…

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When Things Go Well

Hi Everyone! I hope you have all had a lovely weekend and enjoyed this glorious weather. I have actually had a good weekend and decided it was worth sharing since I feel like super mum right now. Okay I know that sounds a bit condescending but for some reason recently I feel like I am…

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3rd Time Lucky? – Prenatal Depression

There are parts of pregnancy that I love. The fluttering baby kicks (maybe not so much the kicks to the bladder or ribs), the bond you have with your husband when he rubs you belly or simply the excitement of welcoming a new baby into the family. Of course, things won’t be quite the same…

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The Waiting Game – Post Mortem Results

Yesterday marked 6 weeks from us taking Silver down to the chapel of rest at the RVI in Newcastle. We’d had five nights with her in the NICU in flats which are used for parents preparing to take their NICU baby home whilst having the nurses nearby in case any incident did occur. It was…

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