Post Mortem Results – 1 in 4 Chance?

When your baby passes away usually the last thing on your mind is having a post mortem. When we were first told Silver was unwell and all the testing came back as normal we came to the conclusion before she was born that if she ever passed away we needed answers. Of course we hoped…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 9 Weeks

Firstly, I cannot believe I am already at 9 weeks! With Silver I was so ill the first trimester felt never ending and I lost a lot of weight. How on earth do I only have three weeks left? I thought I was getting pretty sick this time and compared to Beau’s pregnancy I am…

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Rainbow Baby Announcement

Wow, where do I start? Is it bad that I am starting to write this in preparation for posting later this week and I just had a small fleeting thought that what if tomorrow there’s no heartbeat? I can imagine that’s a normal part of pregnancy after loss. I’m already paranoid and terrified. I thought…

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Overprotective?

We had an incident recently I wanted to share. I want to tell you just what an impact child loss can not only have on our emotional well being but also how it can change our behaviours. I’ve always been pretty protective of my son Beau. I don’t really allow him to eat sugar, I…

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Hit By a Bus – Metaphorically Speaking

Okay so as the title suggests I’ve not actually been hit by a bus, but it feels like it. Remember last week I said how great I felt. I was happy, coping and feeling productive. Well this week grief and exhaustion has hit me like a double decker. I wish I could say what triggered…

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When Things Go Well

Hi Everyone! I hope you have all had a lovely weekend and enjoyed this glorious weather. I have actually had a good weekend and decided it was worth sharing since I feel like super mum right now. Okay I know that sounds a bit condescending but for some reason recently I feel like I am…

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3rd Time Lucky? – Prenatal Depression

There are parts of pregnancy that I love. The fluttering baby kicks (maybe not so much the kicks to the bladder or ribs), the bond you have with your husband when he rubs you belly or simply the excitement of welcoming a new baby into the family. Of course, things won’t be quite the same…

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I Had A Stroke?

I decided while its still fresh in my mind I should finish telling my story after being blinded by grief, literally! As I mentioned in my other post, the doctor at the TIA clinic said not to worry and had ordered an MRI scan of my brain within 4 weeks. Well the day after this appointment…

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