My First Mothers Day Without My Daughter

With Mother’s Day coming up my thoughts recently have drifted back to this time last year. It was such a difficult time losing Silver and Mother’s Day being so soon afterwards. Mother’s Day itself was quite traumatic and my mental health hit an all time low. I’ve never really spoke about it until now. I…

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Finding Me Again

You don’t have to look far to find articles on how social media and technology is impacting society, our wellbeing and our children’s behaviours. I’ve always been very strict with Beau, wanting to protect him from the negative side of technology. Especially when he was younger phones were completely banned from being used in front…

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18 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

And we are back for another fortnightly pregnancy update! I do actually feel pretty chipper right now. Did that sound a bit weird? Well, its true, things seem to be looking up and I can’t help but feel positivity starting to creep in. I’m not going to say its been plain sailing, I’m still grieving…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 11 weeks

Eleven weeks already? How did the first trimester go so quickly? Silver’s felt never ending yet I feel this one feels it is over before its even begun. Okay so technically I’ve got a week and a bit left but still I feel like it was only yesterday we got the news. Nonetheless I’ve got…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 9 Weeks

Firstly, I cannot believe I am already at 9 weeks! With Silver I was so ill the first trimester felt never ending and I lost a lot of weight. How on earth do I only have three weeks left? I thought I was getting pretty sick this time and compared to Beau’s pregnancy I am…

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Rainbow Baby Announcement

Wow, where do I start? Is it bad that I am starting to write this in preparation for posting later this week and I just had a small fleeting thought that what if tomorrow there’s no heartbeat? I can imagine that’s a normal part of pregnancy after loss. I’m already paranoid and terrified. I thought…

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Hit By a Bus – Metaphorically Speaking

Okay so as the title suggests I’ve not actually been hit by a bus, but it feels like it. Remember last week I said how great I felt. I was happy, coping and feeling productive. Well this week grief and exhaustion has hit me like a double decker. I wish I could say what triggered…

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