Last Few Days

I officially have only one full day left of this pregnancy. On Monday morning at around 9am provided there has been no emergencies throughout the night where the theatre has been required, we will be meeting our little girl. I thought it might be beneficial for other rainbow parents if I shared exactly how this…

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18 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

And we are back for another fortnightly pregnancy update! I do actually feel pretty chipper right now. Did that sound a bit weird? Well, its true, things seem to be looking up and I can’t help but feel positivity starting to creep in. I’m not going to say its been plain sailing, I’m still grieving…

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16 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

I’m back, and more organized this week! I decided to get a head start and get writing this before my sixteen weeks are fully up so it might actually be posted on time this week. (scrap that, I got off to a good start then the fatigue hit me throughout this last week and I’m…

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14 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

I don’t know whether to apologise or celebrate?! This blog post is going up so much later than expected thanks to my constant hemiplegic migraines but I am so glad today I am actually well enough to sit here writing! It would seem these migraines are going to play a huge role in this pregnancy…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 11 weeks

Eleven weeks already? How did the first trimester go so quickly? Silver’s felt never ending yet I feel this one feels it is over before its even begun. Okay so technically I’ve got a week and a bit left but still I feel like it was only yesterday we got the news. Nonetheless I’ve got…

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Pregnancy After Loss Update – 9 Weeks

Firstly, I cannot believe I am already at 9 weeks! With Silver I was so ill the first trimester felt never ending and I lost a lot of weight. How on earth do I only have three weeks left? I thought I was getting pretty sick this time and compared to Beau’s pregnancy I am…

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Rainbow Baby Announcement

Wow, where do I start? Is it bad that I am starting to write this in preparation for posting later this week and I just had a small fleeting thought that what if tomorrow there’s no heartbeat? I can imagine that’s a normal part of pregnancy after loss. I’m already paranoid and terrified. I thought…

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Overprotective?

We had an incident recently I wanted to share. I want to tell you just what an impact child loss can not only have on our emotional well being but also how it can change our behaviours. I’ve always been pretty protective of my son Beau. I don’t really allow him to eat sugar, I…

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Hit By a Bus – Metaphorically Speaking

Okay so as the title suggests I’ve not actually been hit by a bus, but it feels like it. Remember last week I said how great I felt. I was happy, coping and feeling productive. Well this week grief and exhaustion has hit me like a double decker. I wish I could say what triggered…

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3rd Time Lucky? – Prenatal Depression

There are parts of pregnancy that I love. The fluttering baby kicks (maybe not so much the kicks to the bladder or ribs), the bond you have with your husband when he rubs you belly or simply the excitement of welcoming a new baby into the family. Of course, things won’t be quite the same…

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