My First Mothers Day Without My Daughter

With Mother’s Day coming up my thoughts recently have drifted back to this time last year. It was such a difficult time losing Silver and Mother’s Day being so soon afterwards. Mother’s Day itself was quite traumatic and my mental health hit an all time low. I’ve never really spoke about it until now. I…

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Why We Chose Life

I recently spoke to someone who had opted for a medical termination for a baby who had a terrible illness known to be incompatible with life. It really got me thinking about what I would have done in that situation where there was a clear diagnosis and certainty of loss. With Silver it was the…

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Rainbow Baby Birth Story- I could Have Died

I wish the title to this blog was clickbait. I couldn’t have made this up if I tried. I would normally complain and say “why me?” but you know what, instead I want to say Thank You. Thank you to Silver Rose, my angel in heaven. Or should I say my guardian angel. I couldn’t…

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Introducing Leilani Nevaeh Our Rainbow

Hello everyone! As you can maybe tell from my 10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby blog post I am officially back to blogging! I don’t want to come on here and do a super lengthy post, I just wanted to quickly introduce Leilani but more details and the birth story will be coming…

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10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby

I’ve been really struggling to bond with my rainbow baby recently and it got me thinking. It didn’t make sense to me that I bonded better with my daughter Silver Rose who was in NICU where I only got one hug in sixteen days yet when I have a healthy baby that I can have…

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Last Few Days

I officially have only one full day left of this pregnancy. On Monday morning at around 9am provided there has been no emergencies throughout the night where the theatre has been required, we will be meeting our little girl. I thought it might be beneficial for other rainbow parents if I shared exactly how this…

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10 Ways To Include Your Lost Baby At Christmas Time

Christmas is fast approaching now and with that comes an even bigger sense of loss for most grieving parents as we are surrounded by adverts of families and ornaments for baby’s 1st Christmas. I have been in two mind sets about Christmas this year. On the one hand I have been my usual self, very…

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Finding Me Again

You don’t have to look far to find articles on how social media and technology is impacting society, our wellbeing and our children’s behaviours. I’ve always been very strict with Beau, wanting to protect him from the negative side of technology. Especially when he was younger phones were completely banned from being used in front…

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26 Week Pregnancy After Loss Update

This might very well be my most brief pregnancy update yet. I’ve been struggling a lot with mood recently so haven’t felt particularly inspired to write much nor do much. This pregnancy is not quite going as planned and just as we thought we could sit back and relax more things have come up. It’s…

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24 Weeks Pregnancy After Loss Update

Hello everyone! I hope you are all enjoying this autumnal weather as much as I am. I haven’t got to experience it too much but I’m loving the opportunities I do get to be out and about as the seasons change. We seem to always have something planned for the weekend at the moment which…

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