My First Mothers Day Without My Daughter

With Mother’s Day coming up my thoughts recently have drifted back to this time last year. It was such a difficult time losing Silver and Mother’s Day being so soon afterwards. Mother’s Day itself was quite traumatic and my mental health hit an all time low. I’ve never really spoke about it until now. I…

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Why We Chose Life

I recently spoke to someone who had opted for a medical termination for a baby who had a terrible illness known to be incompatible with life. It really got me thinking about what I would have done in that situation where there was a clear diagnosis and certainty of loss. With Silver it was the…

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10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby

I’ve been really struggling to bond with my rainbow baby recently and it got me thinking. It didn’t make sense to me that I bonded better with my daughter Silver Rose who was in NICU where I only got one hug in sixteen days yet when I have a healthy baby that I can have…

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Baby Loss Made Me Vegan

As we are nearing the one year anniversary of losing Silver and also are now in the midst of Veganuary 2019 I thought it was only appropriate to share my personal story of transitioning to a vegan lifestyle and the direct link it has with baby loss. You might be asking yourself if you do…

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Tiny Lives Christmas Service

I mentioned in my 10 ways to include your baby at Christmas time blog about attending Christmas services. We originally had hoped to attend two this year, one in Newcastle arranged by Tiny Lives which is a charity that looked after Silver in SCBU, and one in York arranged by The Lullaby Trust which have…

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Yorkshire Wildlife Park With The Lullaby Trust

Hello everyone, I’ve got a really nice blog for you today. We recently attended an event hosted by The Lullaby Trust and I thought I’d write up a little post about our lovely family day out with this fantastic charity. We were so pleased to be invited to a day out with them at the…

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10 Ways To Include Your Lost Baby At Christmas Time

Christmas is fast approaching now and with that comes an even bigger sense of loss for most grieving parents as we are surrounded by adverts of families and ornaments for baby’s 1st Christmas. I have been in two mind sets about Christmas this year. On the one hand I have been my usual self, very…

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Finding Me Again

You don’t have to look far to find articles on how social media and technology is impacting society, our wellbeing and our children’s behaviours. I’ve always been very strict with Beau, wanting to protect him from the negative side of technology. Especially when he was younger phones were completely banned from being used in front…

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Rainy Nights and Ruminating

Usually autumn is my favourite time of year. I love how it’s a cosy season. Where the nights are getting cool and dark and its time to wear cardigans and snuggle up on an evening with warm drinks and spiced foods. I also think it’s by far the prettiest time of year, driving along with…

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One Year Later

As you may know from my twenty week pregnancy update we recently celebrated our fourth wedding anniversary. What might that have to do with baby loss you might ask? Well of course this time last year I was in my first trimester with Silver Rose and blissfully unaware how unwell she was. In fact, I…

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