I’m Dreading Weaning

Having a rainbow baby was not what I expected. There are things that I expected to find difficult that were in fact easy, and things I never expected to burden me with worry. Weaning is one of those things I didn’t expect to evoke so much emotion. I think some of my reluctancy comes from…

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My First Mothers Day Without My Daughter

With Mother’s Day coming up my thoughts recently have drifted back to this time last year. It was such a difficult time losing Silver and Mother’s Day being so soon afterwards. Mother’s Day itself was quite traumatic and my mental health hit an all time low. I’ve never really spoke about it until now. I…

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Why We Chose Life

I recently spoke to someone who had opted for a medical termination for a baby who had a terrible illness known to be incompatible with life. It really got me thinking about what I would have done in that situation where there was a clear diagnosis and certainty of loss. With Silver it was the…

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Rainbow Baby Birth Story- I could Have Died

I wish the title to this blog was clickbait. I couldn’t have made this up if I tried. I would normally complain and say “why me?” but you know what, instead I want to say Thank You. Thank you to Silver Rose, my angel in heaven. Or should I say my guardian angel. I couldn’t…

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Introducing Leilani Nevaeh Our Rainbow

Hello everyone! As you can maybe tell from my 10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby blog post I am officially back to blogging! I don’t want to come on here and do a super lengthy post, I just wanted to quickly introduce Leilani but more details and the birth story will be coming…

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10 Ways To Bond With Your NICU Baby

I’ve been really struggling to bond with my rainbow baby recently and it got me thinking. It didn’t make sense to me that I bonded better with my daughter Silver Rose who was in NICU where I only got one hug in sixteen days yet when I have a healthy baby that I can have…

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Last Few Days

I officially have only one full day left of this pregnancy. On Monday morning at around 9am provided there has been no emergencies throughout the night where the theatre has been required, we will be meeting our little girl. I thought it might be beneficial for other rainbow parents if I shared exactly how this…

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Baby Loss Made Me Vegan

As we are nearing the one year anniversary of losing Silver and also are now in the midst of Veganuary 2019 I thought it was only appropriate to share my personal story of transitioning to a vegan lifestyle and the direct link it has with baby loss. You might be asking yourself if you do…

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Tiny Lives Christmas Service

I mentioned in my 10 ways to include your baby at Christmas time blog about attending Christmas services. We originally had hoped to attend two this year, one in Newcastle arranged by Tiny Lives which is a charity that looked after Silver in SCBU, and one in York arranged by The Lullaby Trust which have…

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Yorkshire Wildlife Park With The Lullaby Trust

Hello everyone, I’ve got a really nice blog for you today. We recently attended an event hosted by The Lullaby Trust and I thought I’d write up a little post about our lovely family day out with this fantastic charity. We were so pleased to be invited to a day out with them at the…

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